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Post by arrestinu on Dec 10, 2019 15:06:09 GMT -6
Been meaning to post on here for awhile now, but finally getting around to it......
I'm guessing ya'll have noticed for awhile that I've been pretty AWOL here. I'm slowly re-appearing, and I hope I will be around here more often, but I don't really know to what extent. I'd considered stepping down, but there doesn't seem to be a strong waiting list of people lined up to join, so I figured even in my absence the ITP might be better served to not just open my team. I also hated the timing, as several long-lost friends have recently joined back in, jlafavor and The doogie, so I didn't want to bail. Hell, the Pope was even resurrected!
But full disclosure......I haven't had much interest in FBB for quite awhile. I've been riding it out, because I've been here for over 10 years now, and I know that kinda comes and goes, as far as fervent interest in the game. But, I've been checked out for awhile. My daughter went through a year-and-a-half long ugly divorce and child custody with a real shitsack of an ex-husband, and that was draining a lot of my energy and time. My youngest son left us empty-nested to go to college, and then struggled so terribly with dorm life, to the point that he tried to commit suicide (he's battled severe anxiety and depression for the past 3 years). So I have him moved back home now and doing much better, but there's been a heavy mental toll.
One thing I've always loved about being here in the ITP was the escape from all the real life bullshit every day. But since about Sept/Oct, it hasn't really been that for me, like it has in the past. I hope to stick around, but I just wanted to vent a bit, and explain why you haven't seen much of me. If I'm gone too much that ya'll think my team would be better off with a new GM, just let me know.
-Chris
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Post by PopeMattythe1st on Dec 10, 2019 17:55:13 GMT -6
Chris, life can really suck sometimes, that bites.
Most stuff goes in cycles though, and interest might come back around.
you been through a lot it sounds like and that does exact a certain toll on ya. make sure u take care of u.
personally i am sure the Pacers will be fine in your care (and if you want to trade king/spencer for Kennurt they will be even finer somehow or another)
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Doogie
1st Rounder
Spurs GM...."Jusssssst a bit outside!"
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Post by Doogie on Dec 10, 2019 20:53:45 GMT -6
Been meaning to post on here for awhile now, but finally getting around to it...... I'm guessing ya'll have noticed for awhile that I've been pretty AWOL here. I'm slowly re-appearing, and I hope I will be around here more often, but I don't really know to what extent. I'd considered stepping down, but there doesn't seem to be a strong waiting list of people lined up to join, so I figured even in my absence the ITP might be better served to not just open my team. I also hated the timing, as several long-lost friends have recently joined back in, jlafavor and The doogie, so I didn't want to bail. Hell, the Pope was even resurrected! But full disclosure......I haven't had much interest in FBB for quite awhile. I've been riding it out, because I've been here for over 10 years now, and I know that kinda comes and goes, as far as fervent interest in the game. But, I've been checked out for awhile. My daughter went through a year-and-a-half long ugly divorce and child custody with a real shitsack of an ex-husband, and that was draining a lot of my energy and time. My youngest son left us empty-nested to go to college, and then struggled so terribly with dorm life, to the point that he tried to commit suicide (he's battled severe anxiety and depression for the past 3 years). So I have him moved back home now and doing much better, but there's been a heavy mental toll. One thing I've always loved about being here in the ITP was the escape from all the real life bullshit every day. But since about Sept/Oct, it hasn't really been that for me, like it has in the past. I hope to stick around, but I just wanted to vent a bit, and explain why you haven't seen much of me. If I'm gone too much that ya'll think my team would be better off with a new GM, just let me know. -Chris I just want you to trade me stuff so stay! but honestly, I struggle with really bad anxiety and depression as well. Ever since I was about 18 I have struggled with depression and my anxiety has gotten worse over the years. You can ask my father. It gets really bad at times and I have on more than one occasion tried and thought about how life would be ended. He also knows this very well being there my whole life. I struggle to this day as well. I live with it every day off and on constantly. I know the struggle is real for myself and anyone who is around me. So I know how that feels. It sucks for all parties involved. That's another reason I have always been off and on in here. Not many people know about it or have always thought I was just making stuff up so it made me keep things inside. Just want you to know that you can always talk to me if you want about any of this in a non-judgmental way. Maybe it'll help hearing the way I cope with it every day, maybe it wont (maybe hearing and talking about it would help me out as well, who knows!) but just know I/we are here or you and I also consider you a friend (even though youre a cop lol) but seriously if you ever need to talk about things just message and ill give you my number chris. I pray for the best and just take it one day at a time.
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Post by greenmachine on Dec 11, 2019 7:52:20 GMT -6
I hope all is well with you today. Although I do not suffer from anxiety/depression personally, I have seen it in its many forms. I hope one day ITP can be an escape or release for you. This is meant to be fun, never let it become a driver for negative feelings. We will be here as long as John is willing to host. Good Luck to you man, we are all pulling for you.
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Post by John1974 on Dec 11, 2019 8:34:30 GMT -6
first I am sorry your family has to deal with that you are a good father clearly. 2nd Family comes first this is how I live my life and if you need to take time go for it! If you want you can always give me some instructions and I can help out with your team as well when needed. But by all means you guys do you we will be here.
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Post by arrestinu on Jan 18, 2023 21:21:20 GMT -6
Howdy ya'll! Can't believe how long it's been since I've dropped by here! Spent a great 10+ years here with many of you. Just happened to have ITP run through my mind tonight while surfing on my laptop. I don't have this link anymore, so I Googled ITP and was ecstatic to find you're all still here! I hope you all are doing well. I finally retired from law enforcement after 26 years. I was offered the Chief of Police job and a 13k/year raise to stay on and take the job, but man, I was ready to be done. Took a job in the corporate world as a Corporate Security Manager for Stanley Black & Decker. Get to travel a bit and have a pretty good gig in my own office. A lot of daily freedom, so pretty nice. I always have the itch to come back here and play, and will never say never. Just stopping by to say HI tonight, but sure do miss the fun here. I still see a lot of familiar friends here: john, fda, yourkers, klomper, daboy's ugly ass (but still my favorite beer delivery guy even though he never brought me any beer), just to name a few. I know I saw more of you on the owner's list earlier when I checked. I ain't forgot ya! Anyone ever see don or doogie? Or know if they are doing okay?
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Post by John1974 on Jan 18, 2023 21:25:32 GMT -6
Holy shit! Glad to hear from you!!. Haven't heard from Don in a long time.
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Post by arrestinu on Jan 18, 2023 21:28:17 GMT -6
I'm glad to see you've kept this thing running! You're a BEAST! I mean.....Czar! I hope you're well, my good friend!
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Post by John1974 on Jan 18, 2023 21:30:48 GMT -6
I'm glad to see you've kept this thing running! You're a BEAST! I mean.....Czar! I hope you're well, my good friend! Been a rough couple years but I'm fighting through the bs.
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Post by arrestinu on Jan 18, 2023 21:35:27 GMT -6
I'm glad to see you've kept this thing running! You're a BEAST! I mean.....Czar! I hope you're well, my good friend! Been a rough couple years but I'm fighting through the bs. I hear that, brother. I'm glad to hear you're keeping that fighting spirit! We've all shared a lot of our personal adversities in these ITP forums, and I always found it helpful. Always did, and always will, consider you all as very good friends!
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Post by John1974 on Feb 6, 2023 15:23:40 GMT -6
We need you back!!
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